I am ready

I have little hope of securing employment.

Today, SSA sent a letter informing me that my benefits would not be paid because "you are not lawfully present in the United States." Huh?

I called SSA. They reviewed my information and could not determine why this decision was made, saying there was nothing in my file explaining it. The letter was dated 2/15, but the SSA Agent said it was written and sent 2/10.

That was right after I had updated my direct deposit information with the new account. A new account was opened because I had fraud on the prior account in both Dec and January.

This is really creating a tremendous hardship for me, because I have 4 payday loans. The amounts due vary: 555.00, 120.00, 83.00, 45.00. 3 of those are scheduled for 3/2, the 4th for 3/3.

I have 90.00 in the account, another 60-70 in cash on me. An empty gas tank.

The rep said the best case scenario would be getting paid 3/6 if they reverse themselves as a clerical error. That means something will have to give. I can get around the $555, but I will not be able to continue that loan, which I need to do until I return to my parent's home.

I am ready for it all to be over. It was as good as it was ever going to be back in 2003-2004. It has been all dwn hill from there. And there is little hope of it improving. I am thankful to those who have made this time nice. but I am moving (I hope) towards an ending.