The isolation is almost complete (Day 45)

I saw Gravity this weekend. In IMAX 3D.  It took in $56 million. It was visually unbelievable. 

I am disappearing or maybe disappeared from Danielle's daughter, Makynzi's life. 

I only bother her & her dad about every other week at this point. She still does not do anything with me since I left Lisa. 

This week's text and response to Mak (her dad, NO REPLY). 

After the mabe (sic), no further response. 

I put my Mom & sisters that I will not be trying to get Mak as I have every anniversary of DeeVee's death (Oct15). 

That's why I titled this "The isolation is complete." Lisa told me that I would be abandoned & alone. She wasn't wrong. Even my niece. For whom I was a foster parent for just over 7 months. Who I spent years taking places, esp. Disney World. But everywhere else. At 10 1/2, she has outgrown it. 

Isolated. Just waiting for this curse to be complete. 

I never thought when I agreed to leave that Lisa would completely abandon me. I never thought that Dave would turn on me. While I am greatful for Mark, Brooks, they have little outside time to spend with me, or me with them. Case in point: this year, I was not even called on to do something with Brooks family for Linda's bday. 

I am cometely alone. Kathryn called in me today to help her with algebra 2 homework. I did so virtually using text, email and FaceTume. Absolute Value equations and graphing. 

I get to see Tara's boy a few times a week. I miss you, Tara. 2 years. 

I don't see your girl, Danielle. I miss you, Danielle. 6 years. 

Soon, I will be a memory. Looks like not a very good one. Oh, well. I gave everything. I am reaching a point if peace as I've started to let go of people. I always cared much more about people than things. I am almost rid competely of both. 

Just in the 7th week since the beginning of the end. More resolved then when I started about this choice. Soon, I'll be free.