I wonder what kind of long term impact I will have on this Kid.
He has gone for a home visit. This got him out of te van ride. He will return after football practice tomorrow.
His brother has a playoff game this week. With the limit on my hours at GW as they taper me down to -0-, I limited my availabilty on Wed to 6pm for that game.
The Kid's Dad will be out of town (Las Vegas) and unable to take him.
I paid off my last medical bill on Sat (except Remicade, which will have a balance excess of 10K after the billing for the last tx posts). So the loss of GW will mostly hit me in areas such as my newly installed cable.
Mentally, I am down, but this time it is different. Resolution to my station in life. It is allowing for more sleep (good), but less production (bad).
Solid depression is very different from Mania, Bipolar and the ultra-rapid cycling. Of course, there is more stability. No 'moodiness.' But in a constant state of down. It stinks.
I find no joy in eating. Whether quality or quantity.
Even Pepsi no longer makes me Happy.
I'm drinking a Yuengling right now. Nothing.
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