Social suicide

I used to keep moving. Never settling with a friend or group of friends. Then I stopped. Now I am socially isolated. Rose is trying to reach out to me. But since being ostracized by her husband, how can I maintain a friendship with her? How can I still do things with their kids?

The answer to this is I cannot. 

I really am adjusting to this isolation. It all started with Lisa throwing me away. I gave her the last thing I could: a zoo membership. 

I am afraid. I don't want to deal with the pain of the return of severe P. but it's coming. We'll see. Oct 31.