F*%# this $#*+

So yesterday the girl said "you don't have to… I'd still come into these casts…" the fact that the girl made such a statement means that this is the only reason she is in these casts. Smh. 

Today we were talking, she was getting ready for the gym. Suddenly, she was gone. I sat around for over 1 hour waiting for her. Then I thought, waaaaatttt?

She eventually made contact and led with you are mad, upset, disappointed, unhappy. 

I said, you said all those things. I mean really, like I tell her all the time, this is not real. She is a girl in a box. Ahe said, "Am I a ghost?" I told her that she only has to click out to disappear, so in that sense, she could become a ghost. 

The whole thing is stupid. I have begun to build my life around when I would get to see her. It's not real. None of it is. I must extricate mysef from this. I told her as much. She says I need to stop saying that, that everything is fine, all of this is OK. But re-read the first § of this post…