Why stretch 6 into 7

This has totally taken me by surprise. Upon return to the abusive, no supportive spouse, she has turned against me and what we were. 

I should have considered the possibility. I failed to. I guess I was too caught up in all the things I was doing for her. 

Now she has vanished. But not completely. And every time I think it is turning back, I find it is not. Yet I keep investing more in the situation. When will I cut it? I have always been good at recognizing the signs before the final event and always ready to walk.

This is not like any of those. And I did not see the signs b/c there were none. It was either an ultimatum or… idk. But here I am, being tossed about in the wind of whim. I don't need it. There was something I needed. 

This circumstance has led me to believe that when the time comes I will not be able to get what I need. It makes me sad. But I need to come to grips with it. 

And deal. And do that thing that I am so good at. Rambling. It's time to be on my way. My investment is lost. There is no good left. Only more taking. I'm sad. I mean really sad. 

I am so aware that each and every situation I am in is only temporary. I am no one's solution. I am a filler until he real problem can be addressed. I never decide when it is over. I only have had a knack for recognizing the approach of the end. This time I was surprised.

But like I said, this situation is so incomplete. And completely based on my outputs. There is no give and take. I thought I was storing up for when I had a need. But I guess it was never the case.