Still consumed

I cannot get relief of thinking about her. I have never had something like this happen to me before. And I'm close to 45. 

I haven't spoken or in anyway had any form of communication with her in 2 weeks. That is the longest such span since this thing had (innocently) begun- mid June, 2010. 

I'm just short of obsessed. It's not my way! So it's creeping me out.