6 mos ago when I determined that because her husband was having sex with a 50 something year old (named Dana- see pic below) whom I knew nothing about, I realized that sharing her with him as a sex partner probably was not a good idea. So now I have been 6 mos without sex. The sex was not really fulfilling as sex. But the intimacy. Oh how I miss it. Being close. Sometimes she would run her fingers across my back after it was over. That might be the thing I miss the most.
It took her less than a month after my 'no's' to decide I should leave. I'm sure it surprised her when I did so readily. So she learned to live without me.
Over the six mos we still had very regular contact. Until exactly 3 weeks ago. Since then I have still called, emailed & texted. I even went so far as to make contact this week with her 10 yr old daughter & ask her to tell her Mom to contact me. Nothing.
3 weeks. Seems like a short time. But in the same period I also have been abandoned by one of my closest friends. So it was a double whammy.
So now I put them both behind me. I am loosening my obsession. That's the thing about 3 weeks. So short. But when my remaining time is short, it seems like an eternity. Oh, well.
I was thrown away by someone who's husband does not find her worthy of loyalty. He even brought the 50 something around their kids at least once- on his birthday. But she (the other woman) was looking for a husband-- she asked my friend's spouse if he'd leave. His response was that there wasn't even a remaining hot ember that could be sparked back into romantic love, but that he would not leave now because he was afraid to leave the kids alone in the home with her. Wow. And this is a pic of the woman he was professing his love to (it seems she has since moved on from him):
It just makes me sad. I only wanted to help her. But she refused it. So I must mentally move on. I recently bought gifts for her son's bday next month. I guess it's over. I'm letting go. 3 weeks is a long time to ignore someone. Bye.
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