Um, yeah.

So yesterday's fiasco? I got punished with a no contact decision today. To the girl's detriment. She got a 75% on a quiz. And I am sad for myself and sad for her. 

She had a funny way about her in the communication we did have. Oh well. I guess (as usual) I miss judged what was and what could have been. 

WDW -5

So I needed attention tonight. I was on phone, but couldn't get any. It's crazy. I know something is wrong with me. But this is crazy. 

I don't exist

So I was posting photos of the trip to social media. Then it dawned on me that the social media maven had no pics of us posted. There must be a reason for that. So I took the pics down. 

Texas trip in review

Well, I am not quite recovered. I can't tell if I'm manic or not. I know I have no peace. 

I drove out Friday Morn. I was mostly excited. I got to meet my virtual friend in her natural setting and hang out for about 2-3 hours before she went to work. We made plans for after work and for the next morning. 

When after work came, the girl did not show up. When we spoke the next AM, everything had changed. She said she would be disposed until 4. 

We ended up meeting at 4pm, going to dinner (Ra Sushi), the show (The Little Mermaid Musical), and then driving to Austin for the night on the way to visit my parents in Plano. 

The trip to Austin had a few things go wrong. There was an accident on the route which had the road closed down. The hotel wanted to put a $50 hold on my debit card-- I was worried about a repeat of the over charges. Finally, the girl ate at 3am and spent the next day, nearly 5 hours of it, anyway, sick. Food poisoning sick. So that led to us being unable to complete the trip to Plano. 

My parents didn't want anyone sick coming around them. esp my dad with the pacemaker. Esp my mom getting surgery. 

So we returned to Houston that night. I stayed with the girl until 3am. It was mostly a very lovely time. 

Then I left and drove first to Melbourne, then home. 

Things are not great. I can't put my finger on it. I'm not right. So there's that. 

Well, that was awkward

So the interaction was for the most part bad. Very selfish little girl. 

She told me she did not accurately understand the situation. She has friends… 

When pushed, though, no not like this. 

Well, better now than later. 

Real boy status -7

Well, I guess things are coming together for an actual meetup. Weird. In Sept, we will go through Houston and take the girl with us to Plano. 

In October, the girl will travel here. She purchased a SWA flight last night. 

Crazy. 

Well that's strange

Here I sit. For 120 min. Doing nothing. Like I am some type of toy or plaything existing, but not really, until I am picked up again. And I was dropped mid-sentence. 

I am not sure how much more I can take.